Finishing Fear: How to get to THE END.

Some writers say the hardest part of the writing process is starting, but I’m not so sure. Yes, “starting” can be challenging for sure, but once you get over this first hurdle, it’s usually a profoundly powerful experience—one punctuated by a burst of inspired momentum that can last for hours. A while back I wrote about this idea in a piece called: “A Breakthrough Cure for Writer’s Block”. Please check it out when you get the chance.

But, today I want to talk about finishing that novel or story of yours because that’s what’s been giving me the greatest problem lately.

It seems that no matter how well my writing is going, whether it’s the final line of my novel or the remaining paragraphs of a chapter, I find myself putting on the proverbial brakes right before the end. It’s become a bad habit.

But why? What’s so hard about finishing? After-all, you would think that a writer would want to bring his story and characters to a satisfying conclusion? Isn’t that what it’s all about?

Now, I’m sure I just heard somebody out there say, “No way! It’s about the journey, not the destination”. “Art for art sake” and all that. And I’m not disagreeing—completely. To write well a writer has to be engaged, inspired and involved totally in “the process” of writing, writing without expectation, or without any worries about how it might, or might not, turn out. But let’s face it, if you never finish a story what do you really have? What was it all for?

Growing up, my friends and I would often go swimming off the Government Wharf in my home town. There was really only one way to get in—which was take a running leap off the end and dive head-first into the icy water. Depending on the tide, the dive could be a good ten to twelve feet high and there would always be somebody who would run the length of the wharf only to pull up short right at the edge. Everybody else would be jumping in and having fun. The fear of finishing your story is much the same thing. What’s the point if you never finish—if you never take that last, satisfying jump?

If you always get stalled at the ending you will never deliver a finished story, at worse. At best, your productivity is going to take a serious butt-kicking.

So, what’s the solution? Up until last week, I was sitting stalled at the 80,000 word mark of my 83,000 word novel. Had I suddenly run out of creative energy? Did all the words in the dictionary dry up? Did my Muse take an unscheduled European vacation? I doubt it. Then, what was the deal?

After a fair bit of soul searching and a pinch of honesty, I figured out the problem. I was afraid to finish my novel. I’m not talking about a kind of fear that had me breaking out into sweats or one that was keeping me up at nights—no, this was far more subtle. It was almost insidious. So much so that I wasn’t even aware there was a problem. But, once I became more aware how I was feeling–that there might be something wrong, I started to look for symptoms.

Here’s the three things that kept cropping up for me.

1) U-turning
I was turning about-face, near the end of story to reread, rewrite, or revise instead of simply crossing the finish line.

2) Extreme Perfectionism
I started to blame those “weak areas” in my story. The ones that were obviously affecting my ability to bring the story to a close. If I could just make them all “just right” the ending would magically fall into place, I told myself. So instead of finishing the final chapter, I reworked those tiny things that truly had no bearing on the ending. All the while, my novel remained incomplete.

3) Excessive Procrastination
I became incredibly susceptible to distraction. Any notion that popped into my head seemed a reasonable excuse for not finishing my novel. I told myself that I would finish it “tomorrow”. That this would be a good place to “bookmark”. Maybe a little extra research (surfing the net, checking Twitter or Facebook) would be helpful? Undone chores suddenly became a priority. Inexplicably, I felt that if I didn’t rearrange the spice cabinet immediately terrible consequences would transpire.

When I really stopped to take a good look at what I was doing I realized I needed to address this stuff—and fast. It took a bit of effort but I figured out a few things that really helped me push to the end.

They were surprising simple tricks that any writer can use. Here they are…

1) Be Conscious
When you find yourself getting close to the end of the story take a minute to reinforce your desire to finish. Be aware of any sudden urges to take a break, or backtrack. Then ask yourself if either is really necessary right now, in this moment.

2) Jump to the End
If you feel any hesitation, take drastic action and jump right to the last line, the last paragraph or even the last page and then work backwards. In goal setting, we are often taught to “think from the end”. Why not write from the end? Skip right over all the bull and stuff and cut right to the meat.

3) Take a Neutral Approach
Try writing free of any per-determined outcome or ending—either positive or negative. Don’t worry what the ending is going to look like or how good it is going to come off. Just write, one word after the other until you reach the end. Set aside your opinions of how the writing should be going, or how fast.

4) Be Courageous
You’ve worked really hard to get this far in your story. You’ve overcome plot problems, crazy dialogue, tired clichés, sleepless nights and maybe even the occasional caffeine overdose only to quit now? I don’t think so! This is your story—beginning, middle and end.

5) Think like Your Hero
What would your hero do at the cusp of attaining the goal? Would he go for it with all
his might, or would he go have a coffee? Maybe cut the grass? No way! When the
goal is in sight, the hero always goes for it! And so should you.

Finishing anything is a big deal—it’s not always easy—believe me, I know. Writing is no different. No wonder it almost always comes with fear. But, the ability to recognize that fear and move pass it is what separates the writers with finished, readable stories from those who only wish they could.

Did I miss something? How do you push to the end? What tricks have you learned to finish that published and award-winning novel? I’d love to hear your views. So please drop me a line or two. Til next time, back to writing!

Troy

Perfect Imperfection

As a teenager my need to prove myself drove me to perfectionism.  Everything I did had to be perfect, pristine and precise—to the extreme.  So much so that I was spending more and more time and effort not just reaching my goals but unnecessarily exceeding them. 

Tweaking and redoing became a compulsion for me—especially in my creative endeavors.  Ironically, the need to reach my imagined view of perfection often destroyed the very thing I was trying to perfect.  What I didn’t know then was that there is no such thing as perfection.  What is perfect for one person is flawed for another.

In fact, it is the flaws, those tiny imperfections, which make something truly come to life and allow it to move pass the ordinary to the extraordinary.  Until I learned this, my true creativity remained blocked.

Here I would like to offer my heartfelt thanks and gratitude to my friend and former teacher Vernon Oickle for teaching me this very important life-lesson.  Throughout my high school years Vernon took on the role of my unofficial mentor.  He taught me lessons that went far beyond Biology or Chemistry.  Lessons that have helped me become the person I am today.

Vernon taught an oil painting class on Thursday nights and asked me to join. I can still remember the smell of the oils to this day. I enjoyed it very much, but I was frustrated when I couldn’t execute a particular landscape or object. Every so often, Vernon would look over my shoulder and suddenly tell me to stop.  “There!  That’s amazing!  Don’t touch it.  Leave it just the way it is.” He might have been referring to a subtle brush stroke or a bit of shading that I had done, no doubt, by accident.

I’d often protest, saying that it needed just one more thing.  In these times, Vernon would give me a knowing look of warning and smile as I ignored the advice and attempted to tweak the painting—only to ruin the specialness of what I had done. “Know when to let it go,” was his usual response.

The idea of “creative release” had never occurred to me until then. Inspiration flows through us, not from us.  As such, we must let it move along. If we fail to release the creative energy and try to hold it too long it will sour and spoil the work.  “Let it go. Release it.”

Vernon is a humble and modest man and probably doesn’t remember the important life-lesson he taught me, but he showed me the importance of artistic imperfection.  All things of beauty and greatness have some intrinsic flaw that make them special—that make them extraordinary.  Even today I can hear his voice as I’m writing and feel the need to pick at the work unnecessarily:“Remember Troy, excellence before perfection.” 

Make the work it’s very best while accepting it can never be perfect. Excellence, however, is an achievable and worthwhile goal. Excellence is knowing that exact moment when to release your inspiration to the world.  A second too early and it may fall short, a second too late and it may crumble.

Everyone can appreciate excellence, but we all have a different idea of perfection.  Excellence allows an artist to complete a great work, while perfection stalls and kills it. 

Excellence before perfection. Know when to say enough is enough and release it. Your work will not only turn out better, but you will feel better about it and get more done. 

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